Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day.....Bitter Sweet

A day of honor, love and adornment for mother's all over the world. This year was a little different for me. Sure I am very loved, and adorned by my sweet boys and husband, and I know I am very blessed to have that. But I was not able to express all of those feelings to my mom.

Today was a day of mixed emotions. One minute I was fine and the next the tears were rolling. I try to remind myself of all the great times we shared together. Every morning of Mother's Day I would either wake up and tell my mom Happy Mother's Day or I would call her and tell her. This morning was no different....well that's what I was thinking until I fully woke up from my good night sleep. Then reality set in and I remembered today I could not do what I had done for the last 30 years of my life. Wow....I miss her so much!

Although it has only been 4 months since my mom passed away it feels like years. Years since I have been able to see her, tell her I love her, and just to say hi how are you. So I just close my eyes, tears rolling and talk to her cause I know she can hear me.

Dear Mom,

You made me the person I am today. The mom I am today is because of you. It is you who keeps me going day to day. I miss being able to call you for help, I miss hearing your sweet voice, and most of all I miss seeing you. But I know one day I will see you again because our Savior Jesus was in your heart and for that I am grateful! I will love you always!

Your Loving Daughter

I know she is having the best Mother's Day ever this year, but it does not make me miss her any less. I am blessed to have had her in my life for the time I did.

You were my mother and my friend,
Which was unusual.
Somehow our characters still blend:
Your wisdom and my will.

I turned, and you were there for me;
I spoke, you understood.
I felt cared for, but also free;
You loved, and I was good.

I'm fortunate that I was born
To someone just like you;
I love you still. Though you are gone,
You live in what I do.

17 comments:

Juliana said...

Andi- I know nothing could ever replace your mom not being here, but she raised a great girl and I imagine all the great qualities I see in you as my friend are those that she instilled in you....you are so loved and I am blessed for having you in my life.....
xoxoxo
Julie

Nana's Nuggets said...

HI! Andy this was a sweet post! and it helps to be able to write your emotions out! I lost my mom to Alzheimers 5yrs. ago, and lost my dad 6yrs.ago,so I know what you're feeling! but I can safely share with you is that God will sustain you with "His Grace", moment by moment! and that is his promise! Just Trust Him. Have a Blessed Week!

Nana's Nuggets said...

Ps.Opps!! Sorry I misspelled your name, did'nt catch it until I pushed the button. KM

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A very sad story, it’s hard losing one of the most important people in our lives. However, time will help to heal the pain and though they are gone we will never forget the lessons they taught us, their smiles and all the good times. We must focus on their lives and not their death.

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