Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day.....Bitter Sweet

A day of honor, love and adornment for mother's all over the world. This year was a little different for me. Sure I am very loved, and adorned by my sweet boys and husband, and I know I am very blessed to have that. But I was not able to express all of those feelings to my mom.

Today was a day of mixed emotions. One minute I was fine and the next the tears were rolling. I try to remind myself of all the great times we shared together. Every morning of Mother's Day I would either wake up and tell my mom Happy Mother's Day or I would call her and tell her. This morning was no different....well that's what I was thinking until I fully woke up from my good night sleep. Then reality set in and I remembered today I could not do what I had done for the last 30 years of my life. Wow....I miss her so much!

Although it has only been 4 months since my mom passed away it feels like years. Years since I have been able to see her, tell her I love her, and just to say hi how are you. So I just close my eyes, tears rolling and talk to her cause I know she can hear me.

Dear Mom,

You made me the person I am today. The mom I am today is because of you. It is you who keeps me going day to day. I miss being able to call you for help, I miss hearing your sweet voice, and most of all I miss seeing you. But I know one day I will see you again because our Savior Jesus was in your heart and for that I am grateful! I will love you always!

Your Loving Daughter

I know she is having the best Mother's Day ever this year, but it does not make me miss her any less. I am blessed to have had her in my life for the time I did.

You were my mother and my friend,
Which was unusual.
Somehow our characters still blend:
Your wisdom and my will.

I turned, and you were there for me;
I spoke, you understood.
I felt cared for, but also free;
You loved, and I was good.

I'm fortunate that I was born
To someone just like you;
I love you still. Though you are gone,
You live in what I do.