Sunday, December 6, 2009

Cancer Go Away....

Hmmmm where to begin.........

As I sat through church tonight and listened to Bro. Nathan talk about his mom who is battling cancer I could not help but shed tears. How does he do it? How does he get up there on that stage and hold his composure? How does he speak so eloquently about her without even a quiver? I would crumble.....I would fall apart!

My mom's battle with cancer is winning. It is taking it's tole on her mentally and physically. What started out as Breast Cancer has spread throughout her entire body. Things we take for granted that we do on a daily basis are major obstacles for her. It makes you think.....sometimes things I don't really care to think about. When I found out they gave her 6 months I fell apart. Thinking to myself who will be there when I need someone to call and tell about my day? When I have a question that only she can answer what will I do? Why does a 31 year old have to deal with this? I feel so selfish when I think this way. I mean many have been through the same thing and where was I then? I still had my mom then and I still do right now! I just have to cherish every moment I have with her!

Interruption....PayBo enters the living room and says he wants to read us a bible story. So I close my computer screen and listened to what he had to say.

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18

13Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. 14We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. 15According to the Lord's own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. 18Therefore encourage each other with these words.

WOW......slap in the face!

I have no more words to say....everything I was thinking just went out the window when God revealed the words he wanted me to hear through my 10 year old son. Amen!

I want to leave with this quote......Don't be afraid of tomorrow; for God is already there.

10 comments:

Yvonne Till said...

Hi Andi...your Mom is beautiful - although I do not know her, I feel like I do through you. I have walked in your shoes and it's not a very comfortable pair...sorry. I wish you comfort during this time as you take each day as it comes...celebrate the small things with her and make your peace. I am here for you if you need to talk, cry or whatever....remember, you were here for me so I need to pay it forward. Love ya sweetie....

Yvonne

Nathan said...

Andi,

My heart is constantly torn! I am ripped to the heart with hurt, yet so thnakful for the times we have with her now, while at the same time very mindful of the future that awaits her. I hurt, I cry, I laugh, I pray...But at the end of the day, its still in God's hands.
As I stated tonight, I am not very emotional. I know that when the time comes for her to see Jesus, I will fall apart. I will have to somehow speak at her funeral. I also know that in those moments God will be most Glorified because of the overwhelming strength He will give to me.

But until that moment, I will share the memories, struggles, stories, and laughs. I have come to realize that the greatest gift God gives my family each day, is another day. Thanks for listening tonight! God is God and He is positioned for our need!

Jenna said...

I am praying for you Andi.

Flo said...

Sweet post. :) There's not much you can do, but exactly what you are doing....reflecting, hoping, praying, and enjoying the moments you have with her. I wish you guys peace and strength over the next months.....

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Remco said...

Nice post, There's not much you can do but go on...

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